Was having some fever now ..so I guess i will make this one short .... is bout the story of the childhood ..the 1st time I heard bout the name of the JC and something called Christianity .. (note : I wasnt a Chrisitan and .. pls forgive for any hard feeling and etc .. even the language.. )
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(How should I start... hmm .. )
ET .. a normal fella that grow up in the non christian background family, all he learn is bout the buddihst. He speak mandarin in house.. a pure chinese educated child .. and is normal that he goes to the chinese school.
At the age of 7, he enter SRJK (c) Chen Moh. The 1st year nothing went wrong ,got some best fren, one of them is Christian, while another one is buddhist .. a strong buddhist.. That time he just know that the Christian is all foreigner .. that is wat is content in his mind ..
At the age of 8 ... one of the fren told him the story of the buddhist and christian .. he dunno is it true or not, the fren told him that the christian saw down the statue of the buddhist ..
"What the hell ... how could they saw down the statue ?? that is so shit of them ...." He told this to himself ..
. he believe what the fren had told him, he got angry and he swear that he will never convert to Christian. Besides.. the hate and anger start grow in him, he thought all the Christians are bad and evil ... they are useless bunch of ppl .
Back to home ..he noes that his sister is a Christian ..and he start hates her .. not becuz of why ..but ..she is a christian .. Later on ..he saw how his sister treat his parents .. and he thought all christian teach ppl to do bad things ... they are satan and monster to him ....
Everyday he saw the same thing .. he told himself .
" When i grown up .. i will never join the stupid Cf and be Chrisitan, this is what they teach my sis to do ..and i wont do it to my parents ! "
Days goes on ..Years by year pass ..he never be a Christian like wat he swear at all ... no one ever mention to him bout the Good News ..No one ever tell him bout the Jesus Christ and etc ...
Everything goes dull ...nitemare year in 1994 ..when he is std 4 .... and he changed totally .. he dun want to be hardworking and be a top student anymore ... even thou he use to be a top student back to std 1 and std 2 ..
The incidence that happened in 1994 ... had make him changed his mind. It was so horrible until today ..he still clearly remember ..how teacher slap him infron of the class on his 1st day in that class ... he still remember wat teacher did to him .throw his bag down the building .... send him to headmaster .. ask him to wear a mask when in the class ... no one can imagine how is dat feel ... he lost all his confidence in studies .. he felt that no one will respect him .... so why should him do so ??
Std 5 ... and Std 6 .. is the same form teacher ..he got the 1st in the class for the 1st time in 6 years time .. he was so happy. He did this .. becus on what they parents had promise him ..
" Son .. get a good result ..if u can improve 20 marks for all the subjects .. i get wat u want "
He did it ... he work so hard for dat .. he thought time has come .. i can get what i dream for...He holding the report card happily go back to home and show the parents .. but ... somehow ..his joy wont last long ...
" Did I ever promise u to get u wat u want ?? u think u work hard ?? is all bout luck that u can score a good result "
Broken hearted .. the parents deny that they say dat .. he lost the motive of working hard .. he hide in his room and start crying ..
"For wat i get such a god damn farking result while no one ever appreciate it ! I work so hard .. who the hell noes ! I wont work hard anymore ! i will never get a good result ! "
The following exam ..he did bad ...and the mom shouted at him
" Do not ever ask me to sign ur report card ..I will never sign it and u better dun show me .or i tear it away ! "
He looking at the report that is in his bag .. he dun even dare to take it out ..
"but ... but ..tmr the teacher needs it .. what can i do?"
He takes out a pen ...holding it in his hand ..he start shivering ... "Should i do this ?? ... should i ??? "
Never think long .... he holds the pen tight ..hold his breath ...steady his hand .... he sign it ..he copy his own father signature .. he never think what this goin to cost him ..
The next day .....
The teacher shouted right infront of the class
"ET ! Did u sign it urself ! "
"N... no.. no .. i did not ..." he answerd ...by with a shivering voice ..
"I can see it .. the signature is not a normal one ! is definitely sign by urself !! Class rep ..call his mom !"
He feels terrible ... dizzy ..he is goin to faint soon ... he thought so ...
To be cont ......
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